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Carpe Diem | Life Lately

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Time really fly so fast that you can’t even notice and feel the flow of its tale. You will just wake up one morning and realize that it is the beginning of summer; and sleep later in the night and notice that it is the start of the rainy season. The life’s pace is so quick, so as the things that can happen to an individual’s life.

And am tellin’ you, life’s aint easy niggah… HAHA!



I’ve been in a one-hell-of-a-roller coaster-ride lately, there are so many things that I did not expect to happen in my life. Things that made me want to weep, things that made me want to sigh in relief, things that made me laugh and smile. It just happen so fast; things happen spontaneously that I am not prepared on how to deal and manage it.

Maybe I will start by telling you what really happen exactly a year ago. So, brace yourself for you will know how boring and irrelevant my life is. So, my question, are you ready? If no, you are free not to continue what you have started and just leave peacefully. If yes, here, continue reading.

April 5, 2017

A year ago today, I get to experience that somewhat floating-in-the-air kind of moment when I march down the aisle, climb on top of the stage and get the diploma that I deserve handing out for me by our university president. It is sure pure bliss I can say; in the past fourteen years (14) of going back to school for thousands of times, here I am, finishing a degree. I lost count on how many times I said these words: “mu graduate ra lagi gyud ko (with matching a determined face and fist out)” for the struggles and difficulties that I encounter during my student life. Life as a student aint easy niggah am tellin’ you, true that. 


And on this day, all the hard works, struggles, and almost-losing your patience and composure was paved by the sight of our university president, in that flat platform handing my diploma to me.




May and June 2017

The next two months of my life was the most unproductive month to me. After receiving my diploma last April, I enjoy being a home body. Lazily reading some novels to pleasure myself (bakit parang ang sagwa pakinggan?) little did I know that on those very days, hours, minutes, and seconds I am practicing lethargy. Isn’t it amazing? (insert sarcasm) on those span of months, I notice that I have read the whole Robert Langdon series (excluding the recently released Origin) of Dan Brown. Yes, I’ve become a little bookworm and the works of The New York times bestselling author Dan Brown was my company.

July 2017

I have realize that my life as a home body is getting boring. So, I decided to make myself a useful individual by finding a job, and luckily, I got one. Though, I feel awkward and anxious at first due to the new environment and new faces that I encounter at the office but I got along in the later time. I just ignore their annoying presence, focus on the task that was assigned to me and make my own small world that nobody can subjugate. Nobody knows that I exist anyway, so what’s the used?


The following months are getting boring as expected. What can you expect from an introvert like yours truly? Though, I get to hang out and de-stress myself together with my college best buddies. Yes, we still see each other even after graduation, they’re like a family to me – a sister from another mother.






November 2017

My family faced a heart and mind boggling crisis. Last days of this month, we decided to hospitalize my mom, due to some health issues. The doctor said, that she needs to undergo an operation for them to get the myoma out of her ovary. But in the process, we all thought that we will lost her. They say that her pancreas was accidentally cut during the operation, the reason of that as what the nurses attendant say, her myoma was too big that they need to cut her wide open for them to get the tumor successfully.

But because her pancreas was wounded and doesn’t function well, my mom experience some series of episodes; she experience some pain in her abdomen and stomach that they need to tie her up with a hose for the excess water that comes from her inside to release. And thank God that she have slowly recovered from her operation.

December 2017

The typical celebration of a Filipino family for Christmas took place. We celebrated Christmas just like a normal Filipino family do during yuletide season, where you can see some beautiful lights in the streets which spreads so much cheer. Also, on the last days of December, I get to spend some quality time with my friends. (If you read my last entry, you will know my whereabouts on those days. But if not, click here)


The following months are like just a typical months and days for a typical girl. I talked to one of my close friends in college Krissa, she said that she have plans on leaving the country to search herself and her fortune outside the premises of the Philippines. She also said that her flight would be on February 20 at 5pm. I was happy for her though, at the same time, I envy her. Because she have the guts and courage to take a leap and go out of her comfort zone, while me, on the other hand, I am too scared to do that. Maybe I was too comforted here in my comfort zone and forgot that there is a world waiting for me outside. Though, I have some plans to go abroad to also search myself and fortune, I just don’t know when and where.



In the last 365 days, up until today, I still don’t know the purpose of my existence and the things that I need to do to satisfy myself. I want to have a career in music; I want to learn how to play some musical instruments, or maybe wrote some poems and novels and be recognize, I don't know... Maybe I will just keep searching until I’ll found the answers to my questions. Well, best luck for me.
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